Friday, January 06, 2023

Being Honest With Yourself

The person we long to be is not necessarily the person we're meant to be.  Many people pursue ideals that don't represent their true strengths and how they can best succeed.  They develop a picture of who they *should* be and work harder and harder at climbing that ladder, only to eventually find it's leading against the wrong wall.  

Consider a few examples:

*  The hedge fund accumulates more and more capital and expands into an increasing number of liquid strategies and markets, only to lose its edge and and performance;

*  Money managers expand their teams again and again, only to find that they are much better at managing portfolios than managing people;

*  A trader works harder and harder at perfecting their "setups", only to find that they are locked into patterns that don't work in new market conditions;

*  Traders spend more and more time on their performance, only to find that their self-absorption creates dead-ends in their relationships.

Here is my fable, based on the recent post:

The caterpillar is not content with being a little creepy-crawler and so hires a performance coach.  The coach convinces the caterpillar that he can be a much bigger caterpillar and move much more quickly.  The coach then gives an inspirational talk and tells the caterpillar that he should not be content with being a caterpillar.  He should become a large, fearsome snake!  So the caterpillar works harder and harder at becoming a snake, only to fail again and again.  But that's not the sad part.  The caterpillar spends so much time trying to be a snake that he never enters the chrysalis and thus never becomes a butterfly.

The important reality is that there are two forms of growth.  One type of growth is improving who you are and what you do.  The second type of growth is transforming who you are and what you do.  Look at Apple; look at Amazon; look at McDonalds.  All are very different companies from when they began.  Year over year, they became better versions of themselves, but periodically they became different versions of themselves. 

In other words, there is a time for becoming a better caterpillar, and there is a time for becoming a butterfly.

Many, many performers hit dead ends because they keep trying to become better caterpillars and never evolve and transform.

The hard part is being honest with ourselves and recognizing when it's time to get better at the game we're playing and when it's time to play a different game.  It's not easy to let go of the past and begin an uncertain future.  If we never enter our chrysalis, however, we will never take flight.

Further Reading:

Trading Psychology 2.0:  Developing Best Practices and Robust Processes

Be Your Best Self